The ONLY Constant in Life...

Is CHANGE...

"Change, whether incremental or sudden, defines [us]."

This quote was posted on a sign at Yosemite National Park... It was obviously referring to the wind and water that shaped the beautiful nature views, but since I saw it a couple years ago, I've applied it in life.

To some, change is terrifying, and to others, it's exhilarating, but it's what keeps the world turning.

The circle of life, some call it.

People PASS ON,

NEW ones come into the world...

Friends grow APART,

And NEW friendships are formed...

People accomplish their GOALS,

Others take a quick BREAK from reality...

Some feel HEARTBREAK,

  

Some find NEW love...

It doesn't matter which changes come or when they come, whether they be good or bad. All we know is that they WILL come. To me, that is so hopeful. I find that there are phases in my life where I am MAD at change and I'm mad at who I've changed into at the moment, but since it's continual, I know that I can always change and grow to become someone better.

"The key to change is to let go of FEAR."

What we do and how we react to the changes hopefully shape us into a beautiful more beautiful version of ourselves.

Even though there is

   

So let's grab it by the reins and... LIVE IT!

Multi-Sensory Aesthetic Experience

It's interesting what music does to us.

Have you ever heard of the band Mae? 

Interestingly enough, the meaning for the name of the band ties in perfectly with my thoughts on music today.

Here I am, in Dallas, waiting to pick up a friend at the airport. It's a two hour drive from Tyler to Dallas and you know what that means... Jammin' out by myself in the car to music!

 As I was listening to the variety  of songs in my iPhone, it was extremely interesting to me how many of them brought back extremely vivid memories or feelings of some sort. 

• "Swing" -Savage reminds me of when all my girls at Utah State learned a dance to it. We'd promptly perform it in front of everyone at a dance party. Such excitement.
• "All I Do Is Win"- DJ Khaled reminds me of the many nights Hannah and I spent doing our closing duties at the wonderful Center Street Grill in Logan.
• ANY Mike Posner song reminds me of Logan. I didn't know of him before but Logan had him on his phone and we always listened to him. Also, "Good Morning Beautiful" is sung almost every morning to me by my dear husband!
• Any FTSK or Rocket Summer song reminds me of the band and how we'd BELT at the top of our lungs the words on the way to band practice.
• "Playing God"- Paramore reminds me of Ms. Kenzie Matthews. We were driving back to Logan after a concert and we listened and sang loudly to the whole Paramore album but our favorite was this song. *Points to the mirror*.
• I don't know why, but that one Chariots of Fire song always, ALWAYS reminds me of my dad. Ok I DO know why. 1. He runs marathons. 2. He loves that movie. 

Anyway, the list could go on and on.

The ironic thing is, McCall, the friend I picked up at the airport and I somehow got on the subject of the band Mae. I don't know how. But she said that M.A.E. stands for something... She couldn't remember but she knew the A stood for Aesthetic (pertaining to, involving, or concerned with pure emotion and sensation as opposed to pure intellectuality)... But she summarized it by saying it means that music triggers the memory of experiences of individuals.

H O W    I R O N I C ! 

My whole thought process while driving to her was just that! I just didn't know my jumbled thoughts had an actual name.

I found this definition on the MAE webpage:

WHAT IS MAE?

Multi-Sensory Aesthetic Experience

is the study of sensation, perception,

emotion, and meaning in art and music.

Music is what feelings sound like.

Music is TRUTH.

Star light... Star bright...

First star I see tonight,
I wish I may,
I wish I might,
Have the wish I wish tonight.

Wishing upon a star... Everyone does it.

But wishing, or dreaming is only the first step.
DOING is the most important step when it comes to getting your wish.
This is something I've had to slowly learn throughout my life.

Lately I've been struggling with knowing what I want to do and who I want to be in my future.

I've gone through just over 2 years of school with many ambitions. I go in and out of knowing what I want.
But even still, when I know what I want I somehow never do what is necessary to get there!
I often feel lazy and not motivated. Since I've failed before, a part of me doesn't believe I can do it.

THIS IS NOT GOOD! In fact, it's ridiculous!

Who says I am going to fail?
Who says I can't do what I want to do and that I won't be successful?

NO ONE did.
No one except MYSELF.
I'm the only one in my way.

So... I've had an EPIPHANY.
Even though I don't know exactly what I want to do, I have decided to succeed.
To succeed in school and eventually in a career in which I can successfully change the world, no matter how small the impact.
I have decided to succeed.

That's all it really takes.
Success=

the favorable or prosperous termination of attempts or endeavors.

So, to anyone out there who doesn't know yet what they want,
Or if they don't believe in themselves,
My advice:

Keep on keepin on!  

Do not, I repeat, do not let yourself get in your own way.

There are several people out there who support you more than you know.

So keep on keepin on, people.